走不完的長巷 原來也就那麼長
跑不完的操場 原來小成這樣
時間的手 翻雲覆雨了什麼
從我手中 奪走了什麼
閉上眼看 十六歲的夕陽 美得像我們一樣
邊走邊唱 天真浪漫勇敢 以為能走到遠方
我們曾相愛 想到就心酸
人潮拍打上岸 一波波歡快的浪
校門口老地方 我是等候堤防
牽妳的手 人群裡慢慢走
我們手中 藏有全宇宙
閉上眼看 最後那顆夕陽 美得像一個遺憾
輝煌哀傷 青春兵荒馬亂 我們潦草地離散
明明愛阿 卻不懂怎麼辦 讓愛強韌不折斷
目前分類:Princess Dairy (64)
- Aug 07 Sun 2011 11:21
心酸
- May 05 Thu 2011 10:18
No More Love
I think I lost my faith in love.
Steve has been someone and something missing in my life. I like to talk about him with my friends, I like to think about him when I’m alone and I like to pretend that he’s still mine when I have no one around. And I know how much it hurts to have someone you love walked away from you and never turned back. Or maybe he did, I guess I would just never find out.
Steve was my boyfriend for two years. We were young and happy together. Or more like I was young. I kept it as a secret because I did not want to be judged. Steve was a sophomore in college when I was in 8th grade. He was my dad’s law student in the university and I was a little girl who went to a catholic middle/high school. I knew how protective my parents are and how our age difference would cause such a drama. However, he was the best thing that could ever happen to me. He drove to my house and walked me to school every morning, he cooked my lunch and dinner, then he picked me up from school at 11 every night. I was deeply dependent and in love and I never thought anything would change.
He took me to Jesse McCartney’s concert for my 15th birthday and he asked Jesse McCartney to sing happy birthday to me. I enjoyed all the jealousy from girls around me at the concert and I couldn’t be any happier. He hid a little diamond ring in my favorite Kinder SURPRISE. I remembered how mad I was when I thought the little chocolate egg was my only birthday present. He was the ideal boyfriend that everyone wanted. He spoiled me and made me the most special girl in the world. His smiles made my heart stop, and his kisses made me melt. It was the first and only time that I was confident enough to tell the world that I love someone with my whole heart.
Then things changed. I decided to leave home and go away for school. I was so stressed out from the school system and so disappointed in my own performance at the high school entrance exam that I just wanted to leave and never go back. He tried to hard to be happy for me and tell me that everything between us will be okay. And it was, at least in the beginning. He was so strong and mature and so comforting, but I was a little spoiled princess. I couldn’t stand the fact that I have to constantly be by myself, I couldn’t stand to watch my friends hanging out with their boyfriends, and I couldn’t stand sleeping in the infirmary at night without my mom or him. So I freaked out, I remember calling him and asked him if he still loved me. I remember yelling at him and telling him that I wasn’t happy anymore. I remember hearing his tears dropped on the other side of the phone. I remember thinking that I could find someone better and be happy without him.
And I was wrong.
God gives every girl one special man in her life. I lost the chance to be a princess. I lost the man I loved the most. I lost the person that meant everything to me. I lost faith in love because I knew I let my best chance slide away and it would never come back.
- Aug 27 Fri 2010 18:34
午後悠閒的下午茶時光
經過一番努力終於把從來約不到的金小豬小朋友找來家裡了 :)
我們很自食其力的烤餅乾跟蛋糕當下午茶 :)
兩種不一樣的餅乾菜豬勒跟小豬很掙扎很可愛
豬勒說: 高中的同學不是朋友
菜說: 會一起照相的不是朋友
小豬說: 同學都是玩咖
and it just hit me
我們幾個從國中互相扶持一路跌跌撞撞的感情不是一般可以替代
不管家裡什麼事感情起伏成績挫折我們都手牽手走過來
我們散布在不一樣的國家不一樣的學校有著不一樣的人生不一樣的朋友
當我最需要人陪最需要人傾聽的時候轉過身永遠都有你們
逛夜市夜唱夜衝clubbing遊樂園逛街或許都沒有你們
但你們永遠都了解我最需要你們的時候
回國第一個想看到都是你們最後一個看到的也是你們
不管行程多滿schedule多忙永遠都有時間給你們
謝謝你們一直以來這麼了解跟懂我
我們都有很多新的朋友我也認識很多不一樣的人
但你們在我的心中都已經有很重要的位置
在你們面前可以很自然的做自已說想說的話
- Jun 29 Tue 2010 20:40
unconditional love 無條件的愛
無條件的愛是什麼
一直以來大家所認為無條件的愛是家人給的愛,不管你是貧是賤,住在帝寶還是養老院,高中沒畢業或是博士,在工廠組裝電腦或在信義區有自己的辦公室,嫁7-11店員或英國王子,你的家人都會好愛你
從懷孕開始聽莫札特,較ㄅㄆㄇABC, 開始念書後到處打聽學校老師補習班,勤勞的打點三餐,無怨無悔的每天接送上下課,安靜的聽我們抱怨,凌晨三點看到從美國打回來的電話也一定會接
爸爸媽媽阿公阿嬤兄弟姊妹舅舅叔叔阿姨姑姑,是什麼力量把這麼多人的關係緊緊的拉在一起,讓這麼多的人愛和被愛,讓這種愛不計較代價和後果
這種愛很安靜,像我們每天呼吸的空氣,沒有人寫網誌歌頌沒有人為此填詞作曲,沒有網站為此設種分類
不知道他的重要性直到我們失去,比失去生命仰賴的氧氣還嚴重
從懷孕開始聽莫札特,較ㄅㄆㄇABC, 開始念書後到處打聽學校老師補習班,勤勞的打點三餐,無怨無悔的每天接送上下課,安靜的聽我抱怨,凌晨三點看到從美國打來的電話也會接,認真的幫我設想將來好多年的學費,以後要嫁給誰才會快樂,是,這是我的家人
家人的愛好難,在搬去美國之後才能深刻的體會
回到家24小時和媽媽妹妹住在一起,小小的事情可以賭氣很久,雖然我們都是很容易笑很容易忘記的人,小小的摩擦和不快積在心裡久了還是演變成很大的問題
其實我們都很會為同個家裡的人設想,我們也都知道我們很愛對方,一時之間生氣的口快卻因此特別的傷人
有時候一急,字都下的很重,事後卻因為拉不下臉無法道歉或甚至連道歉也於事無補
這樣一點一點的小事會不會磨損我們之間的愛,我真的好害怕,每天看著你們這樣的爭吵我很急卻不知道該怎麼說怎麼幫忙
- Jun 26 Sat 2010 17:54
heat
在師大法文上了一整個禮拜的家教
好不容易終於把French ll的課上完了
但一點考試的把握也沒有耶
一整年的課用10個小時上完有一種很不能負荷的感覺
有好多好多新的單字跟文法要背
兩個未來式搞得我一頭霧水
法國人講話好麻煩噢
跟Juliette老師到最後兩天才比較熟
第一次發現我是慢熟的人
下個星期一要去菁英補SAT了
每天從九點上到五點半
怎麼用想的就累了
台灣通勤的學生真是有毅力
七月中法文也要繼續
還是在師大上課 但終於可以上團體班了
雖然家教班非常有效率
但真是不便宜 上一上又很空虛
不知道可不可以被那個很帥的法國老師教到 :)
明天要陪豬勒去買他夢寐以求的夾腳拖噢
- Jun 14 Mon 2010 18:44
taiwan :)
好久好久沒有來唷 差點連帳號密碼都忘記
這次回台灣好戀家
外面天氣不好一直下雨 在學校一直好想念台灣的太陽公公結果還是沒看到
沒有什麼時差好開心
快一個禮拜幾乎都待在家 陪媽媽 看書
慢慢的過生活也很開心
七月開始就會很忙很忙 要上好多課 :(
怎麼大家開始放假我才要上課
看書看球賽
早上看籃球晚上看足球
開始學會冷靜的看球了 哈哈
好多事情一直不斷的發生
自己一點掌控力也沒有
但很努力的學著正面看事情
還是很容易被打敗就是了
- Jan 19 Tue 2010 00:07
:)
i'm so happy that everything turn out the way i want
I'm trying to make my life simpler and easier, and i'm really glad it works
i'm putting more effort now and hope everything keep going well as the way they are now
或許很多決定很傷人或很讓自己傷心
但現在當個高中生就要知道怎麼取捨對自己重要的東西
i'm so happy :)
- Jan 18 Mon 2010 05:54
i thought i have everyone but i actually have no one
- Jan 01 Fri 2010 16:11
thanks to Valentino
2010的第一天獻給親愛的爸爸和Valentino
好多好多的波折好多好多的辛苦
都希望可以隨著2009的離開而淡忘
最後一天發生的事情雖然很不開心
但永遠都不會忘記
不管最後我們兩個會是什麼結局
發生的每一件事情都對我很重要
很多話礙著面子不敢說
但三個月下來你變成我很重要的精神支柱
在很多時候我知道不管什麼事你都會在我身邊所以我很勇敢
要看著你從我身邊走掉不是一件容易的事情
也不是我想要發生的事情
電話裡面的尷尬還有很多無聲的眼淚
是不是愛得不夠多才會互相傷害
是不是給的不夠
我還有什麼可以付出
我該怎麼做
菜一直嗆我耶 :( 好壞
- Dec 22 Tue 2009 11:10
台灣 :)
回家:)
在經過好多好多事情之後以為回家什麼事情都會變的很簡單
apparently things weren't that easy
有好多事情我以為我還小不用管
但世界就是這樣
什麼事情都糾纏在一起
什麼事情都有一點關係
sometime i wish you're here
there's a lot things that i cant explain
i should just get married
move out
and everything will prbly be alright
- Dec 15 Tue 2009 11:31
everything will be alright
這一次真的徹底的看透了
心裡面最後一點點的火花一點點的希望都被澆熄了
其實很早以前就知道你是什麼樣的人
但親耳聽見親耳看見的感覺還是很不一樣
一直把你當成很重要的朋友
曾經逼自己把以前發生的事情放下
但很多事實逼著我面對他們
曾經很愛你
我以為我們可以當朋友
但apparently你不值得
不值得被珍惜被擔心被想念被愛
聽你judge別人的relationship, 你自己的relationship
我以為你是多麼重感情的人
沒想到你轉過頭來說的跟做的完全不相關
那你憑什麼對我的人生發表意見
9個月的時間說長不長說短不短
但9個月用來看清你的人到底也是值得
被騙得好累
少了你一個人又怎麼樣呢
- Nov 24 Tue 2009 09:36
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在NJ
不用上學好開心
我到底在騙誰
又到底有誰在乎
感覺好像在演一齣沒有人要看的爛戲
然後自己在一遍一遍的重複播放
econ和chem的功課好多
每天都好忙好累好開心
看到螢幕右下角顯示你上線
滑鼠都會不自覺的點下去
再去右上角把視窗關掉
我們到底怎麼了
怎麼當朋友這麼難
還是我們其實根本不想當朋友
你講的話講的每個字我都還記得
多麼刺耳多們傷人
怎麼我還是放不了手
怎麼我還沒辦法let go
其實我很希望我們可以當朋友
很想忘記很多跟你的事情
- Nov 11 Wed 2009 10:43
除了失望我還能說什麼
"Hydrogen is like some people in your life, they act differently depend on who they hang out with. we all know who these people are." Ms. Zimmer, Chemistry Class.
我對你真的很失望
我一度以為朋友是真心的
都到了這種地步我還能說什麼
謝謝你讓我徹底的絕望
再多說一個字再多看一眼只會讓自己更傷心
希望你找到真正的朋友
或去這就是我們的ending
i'll just let it be.
好忙好累好笨好多書要念
好想有穩定的生活朋友感情
好想要什麼都不顧慮做自己喜歡的事情
但這麼順遂就不叫人生了吧
- Oct 26 Mon 2009 02:33
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心裡踏實很多
畢竟人生能得到的有限
很多事情不是努力就能改善的
手心的溫度永遠都會記得
但不屬於我的東西我也會很豁達的放開
不讓自己有留戀的機會
要很乾脆
這麼多個月了
everything's finally settle down
雖然不是事事都順你我的意
但這樣的結果我該滿意了
謝謝那個一直站在我身後緊緊握著我的手不放開的人
謝謝你在我傷心難過的時候告訴我everything will be alright
謝謝你讓我知道不管發生什麼事情我都還會有你
需要好多好多的勇氣
就當是一個練習吧
已經很幸福了
會一直記得你的好
- Oct 21 Wed 2009 10:53
what if you are the one I really want
but you just keep lying and cheating
lying
lying
cheating
the end.
we all miss the perfect timing.
- Sep 25 Fri 2009 01:10
save the speech
i'm getting sick of you and i'm being very serious
i never upload things the frequently unless something is pissing me off or depressing me
and you, offically, got on my nerves
so please do me a favor
stop judging people when you don't really know them
and stop pretending to be a saint
because in your heart, you know what you really are.
i want a beautiful life, or at least i'm working on getting a normal life
not to be rude
but i seriously don't give a crap about your opinion
all i want is you to leave me alone
so please, save your speech to whoever cares.
wasting your time on me isn't a wise decision, get on track with the person you really love or the one who really loves you
back long time ago, you already lost the priviledge to stay around in my life
and question yourself what you really want
lying to people isn't a good thing to do but lying to yourself is just pathetic
i don't want to judge your life because that only seems pathetic and fake
but stop being a selfish person as you are now
and cherish all the time you have because we all know it's not gonna be long
i have my way to live my life
- Sep 23 Wed 2009 06:22
decision
這五天發生好多事情
尤其是星期一星期二
果然是大家的公敵
星期一就不能甜美可愛一點嘛真是的
很多決定很掙扎
可是決定好了就要很努力
或許在被子裡會偷偷得掉眼淚
但早上醒來還是有很大很大的笑臉
人不是沒有弱點 每個人也都有自己的weakness
但我相信自己安慰自己永遠是最有效的辦法
自己永遠都是自己的靠山
好多好多的事情
都是幫助我長大的動力
雖然有些事情我從來沒想過會發生
或許被force而做出一些決定
畢竟我還是走出來了
爸爸媽媽的決定我也會接受
而且這次我要很開心的接受和面對
好想要曬大陽
- Sep 22 Tue 2009 10:49
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就這樣了好不好